MY STORY

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    In 2019 I found myself lost and depressed. I found that I couldn’t remember the last time that I felt happy. I was living a half life full of anxiety. I was disconnected and my heart felt black. I was drinking several cups of coffee in the morning to wake up and several drinks of alcohol in the evening to fall asleep. I was miserable and I thought my heart was going to give out. Not knowing what else to do I bought a journal and started sketching and writing. It was all pretty dark and the pages were littered with phrases such as “What can I do? What should I do?”, “I totally lost all sense of myself”, and “Don’t go down that tunnel”.

    When I was a child I had this recurring dream that I willingly walked into a tunnel and when I got to the bottom I saw complete blackness and fear itself. I panicked, turned around, and ran back up the tunnel with metal gates shutting and clanging down behind me right on my tail. As I ran out of the cave into the sunlight I found Jesus hanging out with my family. They were having a picnic and everybody smiled at me with compassion. Looking back, I realize that I found myself at the bottom of the tunnel in real life. I was scared and the gates of doom were closing down behind me. I frequently found my heart pounding and racing. A google search of “how do I slow my heart rate down?” gave me the idea of controlling my breath. This simple technique led me to ideas about meditation and I found myself opening to new ideas of mindfulness and health. I remembered I had an amethyst crystal and some fool’s gold I had gotten when I was a kid. I started meditating with crystals without knowing what I was doing. I began to do research on healing teas and I was reading all sorts of books on chakras and mental health. I started going to therapy.  One night I tried cannabis for the first time and I felt euphoric. My legs became like stone, I lost sense of time and space and I was hearing whistling and voices calling my name outside my bedroom window. My body was on fire and I was scared that I was going to spontaneously combust.  My body would not stop shaking. I felt a string like connection to all of my ancestors and past lives. I didn’t know this at the time but what I had experienced was a kundalini awakening.

    Shortly thereafter, I separated from my spouse and I moved out of my home. I can’t tell you how scared I was that first night in my apartment. I cried myself to sleep in the midst unfamiliar lights, shadows, and sounds. I had horrible self-flagellating and defeating dark thoughts running through my head. The mixed blessing of this change was that I doubled down on doing the hard work of understanding myself, healing myself, and growing.  I read a book that introduced me to new concepts about past lives and and reincarnation and new understandings about my connectedness to everything seemed to just click into place. I was also experiencing visions in my sleep that are difficult to explain. I was seeing patterns of leaves and feathers, sacred geometric patterns of the inside of my skull, the expansiveness of the cosmos, and the most beautiful multi colored coiled light that just felt so good. It was as if I accidentally cracked the code of the cosmos. My meditations stopped being just meditations and I would find myself in scenes that would unfold as a story. In one meditation I waded into the ocean and met a giant fish. This fish took me on a ride into what seemed to be impassable cliffs of ice. However, as we got close to these icebergs I realized that there were channels in between that we could navigate and easily pass through. To me, these ice burgs represented the anxiety I was experiencing and that I could easily navigate them and things are not always as they seem.

    During this time I made some new friends and one of them had been studying shamanic training. I explained to them what I was experiencing and they told me it sounded similar to shamanic journey. My curiosity to know more about this I started taking shamanic training courses and a whole new world opened up to me. I started shamanic training and as I developed my shamanic skills and lifestyle I felt a desire to extend everything that I’ve learned from my healing journey to other’s who may be hurting and needing direction. This is how my shamanic practice Acorn and Snake was born. My intention is to help by offering intuitive readings for practical every day matters, shamanic journeys for inspiration and guidance on a deeper level, channeled messages to connect with guidance from a higher prospective, guided meditations to help connect with internal transformation and healing, and soul retrievals to go to the root source lost soul parts and bring them home to the client. I seek to live in alignment with my true authentic self and my hope is for my clients to be able to do the same.